how to do the impossible

Dear Husband

i already gave up in my quest to attempt not thinking about you for more than a minute

i just can’t

something always reminds me of you…a commercial on tv, a certain word…a song….alex’s smile…

you’re so many things…so many things are you….

you’re everywhere…you’re always there…and here…and in my mind…my whole heart…my whole being…

not thinking about you is like saying i have stopped missing you…i miss you every second…therefore i think about you every second…

and i know where you are…you’re thinking of me too…

you’re thinking of me , i’m thinking of you…you’re loving me as much as i love you

so i will think about you every day..every night…in my dreams…while i watch tv….while i hold Alex in my arm….

because you are my life…and life requires breathing…and right now thinking about you is like breathing…i need it to survive…

i love you….i love you more…i love you most

your wife

happy birthday to me…not

this birthday sucks

i wish you were here

that would be the best present ever

i love you, i love you more, i love you most

anna

oy baby…

things like this wouldn’t happen if you were here! i can’t believe that they’re doing this to us…specially now..

i promise you that i’m doing my best to get things worked out..but NC traffic laws are beyond retarded…I have to talk to JAG tomorrow and hope that they can help me out….

if they don’t, then we’re going to have to do things the hard way

ttyl baby

i love you, i love you more, i love you most

Anna

the story behind my closing line…

“i love you, I love you more, I love you most”

is something that Adam and I say to each other…a lot

he will tell me: “i love you”

i’ll reply with: “i love you more”

and he’ll end it with “i love you most”

I heard your voice!

Dear Adam:

I heard your voice And it made me feel so much better Alex’s face lit up when he heard daddy! i feel so much better knowing you’re safe…your voice has changed…but i expected that…i hope hearing my voice and your son’s cooing was a good thing for you too…we love you so much….we miss you….this place is not the same without papa bear…please be safe…and know that you’re always on my mind and prayers…

i love you, i love you more, i love you most

your wife

the beginning

I created this blog to help me get thru this deployment…it’s going to be set up in a “dear husband” format…Adam is my Husband, currently deployed in Afghanistan

i need to feel like i can talk to him everyday…

and this is how it starts

Dear Husband,

waking up was somewhat confusing…i knew you weren’t next to me…but i was hoping i would walk into the living room and find you sleeping in our couch…with the star trek DVD still playing…but you weren’t there….I miss you so much and yet part of me still doesn’t accept that you’re not here…this is unreal…and oh yea…our truck got impounded…hooray for NC crappy traffic laws….it wasn’t our fault, and i feel bad for Nicole, she thinks it was somewhat her fault…we were trying to get back to where you were because you left your c bag lock keys on the truck’s keychain…getting stopped by the MP’s at almost 12 midnight with 2 babies and it’s 40degrees outside it’s not a good idea…it wasn’t that bad though, everybody was nice and we got home safe…oh yea we’re ordering pizza for dinner, i’m on strike right now (not really just being lazy) but yes, it’s weird.sad not seeing you here…i’m just waiting for you to walk thru the door…but you’re not…at least not yet…as of right now i don’t know how i’m going to deal with you being gone…i just know i have to do it…for you, for alex and for myself…it’s going to happen, be confident of that….

I love you so much…and i miss you…

i can’t wait to talk to you…

i love you, i love you more, i love you most

Anna